DeeLoaf

Its about the current planetary human situation we are in, that situation of our own making and that if we dont, you know, do something about, will be the making of our demise.

Can't really describe it. A lot of meat in there. Just download it (bittorrent link) and watch it (vlc download page for player if you haven't one).

They say that level 70 is just the beginning. Its the beginning of an amorphous game with no goals and no end. Its not like levels 1-69 at all. There is no more experience to get. You instead get to choose what you want to do and .... farm? Grind rep for factions so you can talk to special NPCs or buy special items from other special NPCs? This is supposed to be fun? I dunno. I'm still playing the game because my friends still are. I'm trying to get my character epic gear. I was going to get ready for Kara (level 70 dungeon instance that you can't get into until you do a line of quests) in hopes of raiding it for epic gear and reward badges but I've stalled out after finally getting the 2nd piece of the key. Trying to get into the related dungeons to get the quests completed is tough for me because I'm a warrior who hates to tank. I'm specced Arms/Fury but always people want me to tank shit. I sort of can tank, but I have trouble holding aggro. And its real stressful when you can't SEE the healer because of the swarm of mobs and everything moving around so fast and trying to target the right mob to taunt it off the healer and shit. Ya tanking sucks unless you like to do it. So I try to get into groups as DPS. Yay. Anyhow, that was sucking so I decided to play in battlegrounds for a while, thats another way of getting some high level epic gear. And that is semi-fun ... its fun when you are winning and sucklicious when you're not. Oh well. And ya I know I'm burying my head in the sand with this WoW shit. I'm already falling out of it due to having hit level 70 by myself. A couple other people in our guild got to level 70 but they left to join, you know, raiding guilds. Our guild currently has zero focus as people's levels are all over the places from 7 to 70. Should I join a raiding guild? I've thought about it, I've also heard that they are obsessive pricks too. I _like_ the people in my current guild. Anyway ya I'm falling out of it tho. At the height of my obsession I was watching zero hours of television and spending zero hours catching up on the news. A second 9/11 false flag terror attack could have been orchestrated and I probably wouldnt have known about it. These days I am spending probably equal amounts of WoW, TV shows, and news-reading. I expect the level of WoW to fall further however a sudden rise in the level of my buddies characters might find me more interested in playing long hours into the night with them. Who knows. All I know is that the weather today was really really shitty. I barely got my car up the ramp out of the underground parking for my trip to Crappy tire to buy a heater to augment the too-low heat that my building is providing. I decided to just park in visitors parking upon returning intsead of risking sliding down the ramp uncontrolled and damage my or other peoples property and risk being stuck down there again. I'm back in my cave-like rented flat on the 4th storey of this poured concrete and rebar structure who's initial and ongoing energy requirement boggles the mind. Gas is 1.04 per litre. The oil futures market is still flirting with $100 /bbl ... I give it 2 weeks to crest over that and 3 to touch $105 before falling back and trading between 95-99 for another week before permanently going higher than $100. But what _is_ $100 anyway? For a little while there the USD was going down all by itself. Then our bitch central bank seems to have decided it was time to go down with USD and our sad CAD is back below theirs. Lame. So what to do with all this cash? Could be good kindling for a fire if the lights go out. Hahaha. So wow that was a crazy all over-the-place scatterbrained blog entry -- no proof reading either. Gonna submit. Hopefully makes sense. I think about 2 or 3 people might read it anyway, besides me. Oh ya, merry Christmas, err, catholic-church-augmented-pagan-YULE I should say. A fucking tree in the living room with paper-enwrapped-presents shoved under it? Ya ... thats not a pagan YULE celebration. Hahaha. Go YULE celebration, sounds a lot less lame than "Christ Mass" anyway. But I'm gonna skip the gifts crap. No need to spend the money, and nobody else needs to spend the money on me, I'm just fine thanks. There is nothing that I want that I can't afford to buy for myself right now (consumer consumer consumer buy it with the tokens from working stupid job helping hedge fund parasites communicate with their equally parasitic investors via stupid web applications for producing fund performance charts and shit in nice commentary pdfs). But do I buy the things I want that I can afford? No. Why? I dont know. I just dont like to spend money for some reason. I want to buy some land in BC after the real estate bubble fully runs its course. I want to dig a really deep hole to where the rocks get hot and make geothermal energy ... and maybe rule the world with it? Or help the people of the world rule their own world sustainably? Or something. I dont want to work "job" no more. I want to do something here on this planet that is actually worth doing. I dont know how I can do something thats worth doing without a great struggle to survive and then theres that oh so minor detail of having a kid to help support. I feel stuck. So I play WoW and pretend to live in another realm when I can. When I can't or get sick of that I mull the reality that I'm stuck in. I feel alone a lot. I like that a lot too, but sometimes I long for something greater. To be part of something thats important and worth doing. Join the right cult maybe, hahaha. Or start the ultimate one. But I dont seek personal power, just personal autonomy. Rambly rambly rambly. I think I'm done.